Dying for Support; Learning to Heal

I do this often; I step back from writing and doing some things I love in order to really reflect. Sometimes I write without blogging, and that's okay. When I'm ready to share my thoughts, you get them full force... so here it goes!

I've been thinking a lot lately about the power of a strong support system. I've realized that as I get older, it has been more important, and even critical, to surround myself with people who want to help build me up because I'm tired of people always trying to break me down. However, building a strong support system is tough. With everybody around us going through their own trials and tribulations, sometimes it's hard for others to support you; not because they don't want to, but because they aren't always able to provide you with the type of support that you need. Just because a person loves you doesn't mean that they are able, when you need them, to pour into you... I'm learning that that's okay!

Think about it: are you available, wiling and able to be there every time a friend calls? I'm not asking do you WANT to be there, but CAN you be there? Are you in a mentally, physically, emotionally and spiritually balanced place in your life to be able to provide substance to the life of another? Are you unblocked in a way that allows you not only to hear, but to listen? Are you open enough to give honest and unbiased opinions? Are you well enough to take on more weight or pressure? Are you able to give hugs when necessary? Consider all of these things before you require the world of someone and ask yourself these questions when somebody you love needs you.

I've felt really lonely for some time now. Sometimes, I'm not there myself. I don't check in when I should and I don't do everything I say I want to do. Sometimes, I'm unavailable to chat, to chill, and to connect. Sometimes, I'm distant because I need to be. I've put so much of myself into other people, but sometimes I need to be able to break and have somebody support me too.

​I've been really inspired lately by a friend of mine He makes me realize that there is so much that I'm missing in life, not because anything is unobtainable, but because I haven't been putting my energy into all the right things. I don't put enough energy into myself. Over the past couple of months, I've been learning to step back, to think and to take my time. 

It's important to give myself time to process before I jump to conclusions, pass judgments, or make decisions. I'm trying to be there. I'm trying to let go. I'm trying to forgive. I'm trying to move on. I've been focused on healing so that I can be the support that my loved ones need and so that I can accept the support that I need. They deserve the best parts of me, and better yet, I deserve the best parts of me too.

Be free. Live a little. Xo. Née <3